underdog victorious

So - the weekend is over and I must say it was the best weekend i've had for a while. I met the boy from CL - and we're going bowling on Wednesday. Good for me. He's nice and sends good e-mails. OK - it was 13 pages of e-mails before we met. And that was only over 4 days. Yikes.

So what should I do? I'm such a sucker i'm afraid i'd just jump him if I had the chance. Probably not a great idea for the whole long term friendship thing. Because I don't need another disaster relationship - I need a friend. Is it too much to ask for a friend I can make out with? Not to be totally disrespectful - like how do you deal with the whole FWB thing? Is that even an option today? Should you be exclusive?

Bleech.

Anyhow - it seems that he's going through disaster breakup as well, which is fun. I told him some stories of the ex (especially having to move out by a certain time b/c of the party he was having that night) and he laughed. See, the best part is that it was really that bad. The ex is really that much of a nightmare. And if I disclose the other boy's behavior - ha! Can't wait for that reaction. Then again, the reaction to me will probably be not so good as well. Have I built up enough karma regarding the whole situation that I won't be the villan anymore? Not that I was the villan so much, but I was the only responsible party. He fucked up too. He chose to be with me. Then he bailed and wants to pretend that it's all just a terrible thing. He seemed to get some not so terrible stuff from it. I just lost everything I had. What did he lose? Oh, that's right - nothing. Just me and I obviously am nothing to him.

So the new boy wants to go bowling with me. I can bring my leopard spotted bowling bag. And my bowling ball has my name on it - in cursive.

This is a really big deal that I'm doing this. I don't do this - and it's good that I finally am. So there.

Oh - and work is cra-zy. I might get promoted. Wish me luck.