does this sound like modest mouse?

OK - so the dilemmas post-NYE...

Wolf Parade - actually tres-fantastique - but i can't get over dude sounding like he's in Modest Mouse. I like the other dude better.

So, after telling off the family and changing the plans - I went out by myself on NYE. And it rocked. I picked the right crowd, the right ensemble and generally a pretty good place to be alone. Found some cute young boys to mock the crowd with (of course I think they were gay - because all of the gay boys love me). My favorite scene of the night...

Man dancing in a little circle spanking himself with a 'clap your hands say yeah' t-shirt on.

I can't believe I was nervous about going to the pitchfork NYE show - i can rock the indie crowd too.

oh! and the whole franz ferdinand look works really well. i'm happy boys are actually being kinda stylish nowadays. as a girl raised on grunge it's just so *different*. but cute.

went to the therapist today and ranted about how my family and ex really hurt me - she kept on being kinda antagonistic (which is my relationship with this woman) - when I finally went 'how come i have to be strong all of the time? why can't they be strong too?' and she actually agreed with me.

oh - and my lovely, lovely boss is back from her vacation. i gave her a new name - mary poppins. because she is. and i loved mary poppins when i was a girl. how cool is that? i have mary poppins for a boss. one good thing for '05. but can i tell you how happy I am that the year is over over over.

sad story - i'm posting in the apple store b/c i have no computer. but now i have cable - so i can watch the most bizzare marathons on tv - 'project runway', 'law & order', 'iconoclasts', 'degrassi-tng'.

the kevin smith eps of degrassi are pretty brilliant.
and hazel rowley is the best biographer i've read in a while - get tete-a-tete if you want a quick existential education and to love my girl simone some more.

so - should i go see bobby conn on monday? badly drawn boy loves him - therefore i might. and he's local and i should have gone to see him a long time ago. conquer the fear - go to shows alone. it's not too hard.

one of the many things to get over right now is the fear of being alone and not doing anything. i forget that it's ok to just veg.

i don't have to be at work until 10:30 tomorrow. yay me.

off to buy some valerian so i can try and sleep tonight - the holidays and flipped work schedule has just fucked with my sleep too much.

and i'm eating mcdonalds for dinner because i haven't had it in like a month and a half and i'm craving grease. god love the pms.

then i'll think about the divorce lawyer. i need a day of peace.